Two for One...

No, this isn't a post about twinkies...it's that I have two items on my mind today

1. Over the weekend I was in my car and there was a fascinating story playing about how a newborn baby's brain develops:

http://www.wnyc.org/shows/radiolab/episodes/2010/05/14


I vividly recall that as a small child my senses were vastly more sensitive than they are now. I clearly remember loathing onions because they burned my tongue and how much I dreaded each Independence Day because the noise from the fireworks was too loud.

Therefore, it makes perfect sense to me that a newborn's hearing would still be developing several months after it was born.

I have also strongly believed that babies can hear sounds in-utero. This was reinforced when I did some work with Lyndsi Eastburn - a leading infertility hypnotist - who explained that when she worked with pregnant women who brought their babies to visit after the babies were born, the infants would reach for Lyndsi because they recognized her voice.

2. The second topic on my mind lately is regarding my desire to be in a state of ignorant bliss regarding our upcoming cycle.

I've been thinking lots about my cycle and how I want to get through the 2ww. Last time it was easy because I was overseas - so my mind was focused elsewhere. I hope that once I get my calendar for this cycle, I can take some time off again and distract myself.

In certain respects, today's medicine tells us too much and I think it would be better to live under the assumption of the best outcome possible. It wasn't so long ago that most women had no idea they were pregnant until they were much further along in their pregnancies.

My hope is that I can come directly out of the ET assuming this worked and immediately banish any uncertainty, doubts or negative thoughts. I am going to do my best to assume a BFP and consider the HCG blood draw as a mere formality.

This may sound nutty, but sitting here today, I almost don't want to go for a beta at all because I know that the results are totally out of my control and seeing my beta rise as my progesterone was falling during my last cycle for about eight weeks was "stress city". Don't need to go through that again!

In addition, I am going to do my best not to POAS (considering last during my last cycle, I POAS'ed on a Friday - the morning of my beta - and it negative. I assumed it was correct and didn't POAS again until Sunday - when it came back positive. On Monday, the HCG level confirmed a BFP
So, there you have it - that's the way I see it today...