Having lived through the tumultous economy over the past few years, being at the height of our careers, and seeing talented friends who have been out of work for extended periods of time, it's important to us to have the security knowing that if one of our jobs suddenly end, we will still have income coming in each month.
The one thing that has made returning to work palatable is that my boss obtained a special exception to allow me to work at home two days a week. Even though I don't have much snuggle time with the babies on those days, I do save two hours by not commuting, and I know they're right downstairs if I need to sneak a kiss (by the way, I'm testing the theory if you can kill your kids by kissing them too much...so far, so good).
I always thought that it would get easier the longer I worked, but yesterday during my morning commute, I started getting teary-eyed because I missed them so much. Does this ever end?
Even though F woke up at 5 am screaming like someone told him he would never get to eat ice cream his entire life, I didn't care...I scooped him up, hugged him tight, and assured him everything would be ok. Within 15 minutes, we were both asleep on the couch - his face smooshed against my chest, by his choice.
Since coming back after New Year's, I have been assigned to a project that has required commitment and overtime. Having these new "consultants" join our company will mean an additional $30 mm in revenue - so it's significant and high-profile.
Tonight, is the culmination of months of work. It's when the transfer becomes official. It doesn't mean that the work is done (it's actually probably just beginning), but it does mean that I will have to pull a near all-nighter and be back in the office early tomorrow morning to take care of damage control (there's sure to be something someone forgot along the way).
To ensure things go smoothly and I have the proper Internet bandwith, it's important for me to work from the office vs. home. Consequently, I decided to stay in a hotel tonight so I can get to bed as soon as possible and not have to commute an hour tomorrow.
While I know it's for the best for work and it's not a life-or-death situation, my heart aches to think I will be away from the Twinks for the night...sob, sob, sob.
They are now close to three months and I can't believe how much they've changed. They are just starting to play with toys and smiling like crazy! It's hard to be in a bad mood when you have such happy babies to greet you every morning.
Here are pictures I took on Sunday:
Oooooo...ahhhhh...look at that!
In my surfer-dude shirt and overalls - all ready to go sunbathing!
Sheer bliss!
Outfit #2 on Sunday
Outfit #4 on Sunday
7 comments:
Oh my goodness those are some cute babies!! That's a tough situation with work. I totally understand the dilemma - would be great to stay home but when you have a good job, it's almost impossible to give up - especially, as you say, in these uncertain economic times. Tough decision for working moms.
Such adorable twins! Oh I am sorry you are still having such a difficult time upon return to work...thanks for the heads up on this. I am reeling about the looming 2 more months until I go back to work and I was hoping that within a few days all would be just fine. Guess, it might be a little more difficult...hang in there and steal every kiss or snuggle you can get while you can. Hoping you get a break soon!!
I think so many mothers have a tough time transitioning to going back to work. My sister said she felt almost physical pain and longing to be with her baby in those early months. But it sounds like you have such a good work situation that it's worth it, albeit extremely tough. The twinks are so freaking adorable in those pictures - no wonder you have such a tough time leaving them!
The twinks are so cute! They look very healthy, happy and well-adjusted, so you must be doing something right:) I commend you for continuing to work and raise twins - it know it's so difficult for the pay-off will be well worth it. I hope your workload lessens a bit soon!
Thanks everyone. I hope this balancing act does become easier as time goes on.
IVFlygirl, just wanted to say that yes, I absolutely saw your comment earlier - read it multiple times! And it was one of the things that made me feel so much better, so thank you. I'm just glad I have great women around who have experience with this sort of thing that have paved the way!...
Cute, cute, cute! I can't believe it's been 3 mos already! Then again, I can't believe I've had my twins for a month! I, too, am planning on returning to work (after 12 weeks) and WFH 2 days/wk at first. Then I'll try to wean myself to once/wk. Although I've had thoughts of returning 2 wks earlier because my boy twin must have spinal surgery on June 11th when he is just 4 mos :( and I'll need time off for that...
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