Thank you for sharing in our excitement! Last night I kept staring at the u/s pictures the u/s tech sent us home with because I still could not believe it. This morning when I woke up, I still felt like I am living in a dream!
Each time I have gotten a BFP and gone through my "2-6 ww", various parts of songs have popped into my head to help get me through. Songs like David Soul's "Don't Give Up on
Us Baby", the Mary Tyler Moore Theme (You're Gonna Make it After All), and Bon
Jovi's "Livin' on a Prayer." another one that came up again and again was the chorus to Van Halen's "Love Comes Walking In."
And then you sense a change
Nothin' feels the same
All your dreams are strange
Love comes walkin' in
Some kind of alien
Waits for the opening
Simply pulls a string
Love comes walkin' in
These lyrics would make me ponder the love walking into my life and fighting with all it's strength to develop inside of me brought about by some strange, alien force that I cannot control.
When I got in my car on Thursday to rush home from the restaurant, my radio was on and the station was in the middle of playing this song. As a single tear fell from my eye, I thought to myself "How ironic, here I am losing my pregnancy again, and now that song plays?!" Little did I know the universe was trying to tell me something!
My next u/s is Friday. This gives me a week to just live in bliss knowing everything is ok. I understand it's very common to lose a twin this early, but both my head and my heart are telling me these two twinkies are here to stay.
Aside from being tired, I have been having sharp, high cramps (just below my ribs sometimes) for the last 48 hours. Nurse said Tylenol is ok. Also finally starting to feel small waves of nausea the last 2-3 days. Right now, I couldn't be more happy about feeling like this!
4 comments:
Wow Flygirl! Just catching up?!! I have been swamped all week since coming back to work. What a rollercoaster you have been on! And BTW those are GREAT HBs for 5weeks! To even find a hb at that gestation would be a huge source of comfort for me. So if I understand correctly they think all the bleeding was due to an SCH or the second twin miscarrying? So sorry Flygirl...not easy. Hang in there. I can't imagine how LONG the coming days will be until the next ultrasound. Thinking of you...
Congratulations - that's unbelievably good news! You must be thrilled - can't imagine!
Keep checking on you to hear more and more good news....can't get enough!!
Lisa - They definitely attributed the bleeding to the SCH
vs the 3rd sac. They said it may happen again and not to panic - even if I have another gush of blood. It is very rare that SCHs endanger the fetus. Most important is to avoid an Infection - so my nurse immediately called in a prescription for erythromycin.
Now that we've seen the HB's (and so early too) I feel very confident that this time both LOs are here to stay!
Yes, I am looking forward to our next u/s on Friday, but now that I'm in new territory where I've NEVER been before, I LOVE being right here, living in this moment of bliss knowing two lives are thriving inside me. I already have crystal clear visions of me and my DH pushining the double stroller around the lake 3
blocks from our house with our labs leading the way.
Wonder how many women will see our beautiful family enjoying our time together and be where we've been for the last five years - wondering if it will EVER happen for them? I almost want to put a big sign on the stroller to let other women grappling with IF know the tremendous effort and sacrifice involved.
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